I really look forward to this coming friday. Though its been a week since we talked. ok. Enough of that. I look forward because its a new month! Its the start of a whole new thing. No more army thingy. No more craps.
And.. tml i will be meeting my army friends. Hmm.. I thought i said no more army things? Lol..
What's going on?!
Yay... Monday is coming! That means u will be back looooo!!!
I have a brand new plan for my holiday after the long battle in school.
At first, I have plans to visit Tokyo this Xmas. Unfortunately, it was cancelled. The reason is due to one of my friend happened to have $25 left and thus, the rest come to a conclusion to cancel it. SIGH.......
HIAZZZZ..
I thought i can go this coming xmas!!! Then i will have topic to talk. lol.
BUT.
Wits thinking brain has come out with a new plan.
He will travel to Taipei in January instead. Anyone interested? If not, he will go with his family.
The priority of the plan will be visit Jay Chou's RESTAURANT! I dont care how expensive the food will be, I want to be in there at least once and tried whatever they sell!
Therefore, I named this trip as 尋找周杰倫, 台湾之旅!
*its 11pm in Tokyo now. 3rd day already... still eating and shopping? haha
I read my horoscope for the day or maybe week from 'life'. One very interesting thing they said was today is the day to end something, but not relationship. At that moment I was wondering why do u need to type in that..
Ahahah..
I guess it's just some coincidence..
It's 12.25am now in Tokyo.. U should still be shopping ba.. Hahah..
Actually i plan to go out today but thanks to the weather, I have warm my seats at home. Therefore, i decided to push a few tasks for tml to be done today. Unfortunately, my friends arent free tml too. (Didnt even tried asking howly, cause he cfm not free).
WHERE IS EVERYONE?!!!!!
Sigh....
Emotional enough to stay at home, going shopping alone is so damn boring. Going watch movie alone was history. Had even moments of being alone.
I guess she's on the plane or may already reached her destination.
Yesterday night, i was talking to her on msn. Its a really short conversation. I think she's busy packing her packs, for some reason, something struck my mind. I felt that she's going with someone special.
should I end this story or continue? I asked 2 friends. Both had their own opinion. Mine obviously is continue on.
BUT...
I think its better for me to start to prepare for the worst. Because she is starting to give me the cold side. I guess she felt something or someone told her something or maybe my actions or words made her think of something.
I guess this 10 days or rather 8, i will condition myself not to think of her. By then it should be easier to make my final decision.
I realize nowadays after inviting her to the play, i always relate the relation to Peter Parker and Mary Jane in Spiderman. Oh dear, i'm going bonkers...
I remember posting something about not seeing her online or talking to her for awhile yesterday. Not long after the post, she came online. Power right? Or is it god's will?
Not sure. But we didnt really talk. I admitted i had tried to get her attention by appearing offline and online for several occasion. Ok, i admit it. Its dumb but it actually work in the past. Unfortunately, it didnt work last night. So i gave up and went to sleep.
I thought I could sleep peacefully, in the end, I woke up to go online again. LOL! She didnt online for long after that.... Sigh....
How?!!
Anyway, she called me just now because there was something that I wanted to ask her. Work related. Aiyo.. Why like that 1? lol..........
Until now i still dont know why i'm at this page. I should be clearing my mail box.
Since i'm here.. lets talk about what happened recently.
Hmm.. Nothing much. Maybe today, I found a nice cca to join. I think I can be a "DJ" for ntu. LOL! Yes.. Its my interest to be a DJ in the future. Today it so happen to come to me when i walk pass the radio station.
I guess i will be cool to be able to play music and talk in air to the people in ntu. BUT... I think i have no time for those. *Pondering* I will consider and also find out more about this club first.
More updates about her... No update at all.. She didnt talk to me since saturday.. Its the 3rd day.. sigh.. after saturday, it will be a straight 10 days.. WOOT! I think i will go bonkers..
Its the beginning of a new life. I'm actually getting used to it! :)
Can you believe it?
2 years ago around this timing, I was actually sitting outside the building holding onto my phone and calling home. Then i would have to spend the next 2 weeks without any tv, gaming or even reading. Everything I did was pt pt pt and PT!!!!
A look back... I was glad that time passes quickly but I dont mind going back to visit the place again. But its restricted area, so I guess no chance lo...
Anyway, a new beginning, a new life, but a stressful one. I have always remind myself not to be stressful because she told me stress = cant study. So yah.. Must bear that in mind. I must feel relax and approach work in the most temperest manner.
oooo... I still cant forget the first night at the place. Its so ... lol. Everyone was lost. Really lost.
Ok. I guess i will close it here. Tml have to head down early to school to get tickets for her. Hopefully can get it ba... If not will not see her or hear from her for awhile lo. She's going on holiday lo~
I have finally ORD-ed. Actually ORD stand for operational ready date but i just dono why is trying ord lo.. LOL. Or whatever term. If we follow the English rule, I think everyone failed their english. Anyway, I also dono what i'm trying to say. LOL!!
AHHHH...
Today's so damn tired.
Woke up @ 5.30am not going to camp but to school. Ultimate lectures again. Then after that rush back to base to sign my final 2 clearance. After that wasted like so many hours there just to wait for nothing. Then i went to another camp to try to get my IC. In the end, I was told that they didnt collect it for me. SO.. I have to make my way down to CMPB. WOO~ Its a triangle offense today.
When i was at CMPB, its like a maze. I went round asking where to collect and climbed dono how many stairs.. FINALLY, I found the office. I heaved a sigh of relief, i went in and ask one of the clerk to pass me my IC. It took awhile but it was worth waiting. In the end, I walked out of CMPB, I didnt shout ORD. LOL! Come on. It will be like so weird.
Anyway, I took bus to Queensway from there. On the way, I saw her office. I didnt drop her a message to try to meet her for dinner. I think I'm done for the day or should I say I think i damn scare to meet her la. Lol....
When back, I saw her offline MSN text, 'eh dont so stress k.. just beginning'. WAH.. Melted la.. Lol. Its like you had a long and defeating day. After seeing such message, it really booast your morale up. I guess my decision for disappearing from fb and msn is on hold again... I will try for a 2nd upper class honour for her! Lol.. You wonder why not 1st class. At the rate i'm going, can 2nd class i think i'm a genius already.........
I think i screwed it up again. I just cant start a topic with a girl or go one on one date with a girl.
OK... That's it. I think its over...........
She was late for the play today and everything seems so screwed up. We didnt talk for more than 10 sentences. I was damn quiet. She too i guess became bored. So when we made our way out of the play, she didnt say anything. So i asked her where does she want to go or do, she replied that she wants to watch movie. I didnt ask watching with who because i saw her playing with her phone. I guess is someone special...
So we parted ways at a junction. She said she wanted to take bus, so I didnt want to force to follow. So i went to take train. As i made my to the station, I saw her walking to the station. My first thought, 'I thought you said u want to take the bus and why are you here?'... I was damn lost. I didnt care about her and pretended not to see her and disappear from her sight.
I guess its really time to say goodbye... nothing worth wasting for. I spent too much time on it and now uni is really giving me way too much stress. I think i will break down if I were to find out more about her secrets..
Ok...That's it.. I hope i will not back out my words.. I have decided to give her up totally and I think for the next 10 years.. I will be a workaholic for myself and for my parents...
And.. I have also decided a date to disappear from msn and also fb. When i ord will determine when i officially ready to disappear. Good news.. I will still update this blog since I think not many friends know about this, in fact i think only 1 knew about this. Lol..
I cant take it anymore!!! THE URGE OF HAVING A NEW GAME IS WAY TOO STRONG!!!
Therefore, I went to a forum and search for 2nd hand game and bought it.
I bought Prince of persia: the forgotten sands. Its almost 6 months since I last spent money on a new game. Wow... Lol. 6 months. But my expenses are equally bad. Hmm.. I guess no matter whether I'm playing game or not, I'm spending alot of money. omg...
This pop is quite cool. I can turn back time... There are more power to uncover.. We shall see.. :)
Its almost the end of week 2 for my new life. I must say life in UNI is totally different from Poly. In poly, everything is taught at a very slow pace. Its impossible for you not to catch up and if actually fail in Poly, I can only wish you good luck when u enter UNI. lol.
The pace in UNI is much much (at least 10 to the power of 5 times) quicker than Poly. There are only 1 tutorial for each subjects. And there are only 2 lectures at most for each subjects. Let me tell you the best part. I learnt emaths 2 in my poly year 1.2, if i didnt remember wrongly. I think last week there were 4 maths lecture, 2 were make up for the holiday's lecture. In this 4 lectures, we actually cover the whole of whatever was taught in sem 1.2 of the poly. That's like 3 months into 3 - 4 hours? LOL.. The most amazing part, the lecturer told us, he will not test us questions directly from the topics he covered. WOOOOO...
My friends told me someone who dont like crowd is called something. I cant really remember. They also gave an example of places which they might avoid since one of them dont like crowded places. The examples are it shows.. Lol. Immediately, my mind began chaining all the possibilites for the reason she skipped the it show.
Another friend of mine also told me maybe she didnt like the idea of going it show. Hmmmm..
Sian. I thought can like go out together and talk rubbish or have a simple meeting.. etc.
Ok.. I guess there are still many possibilities...
Hmm.. School work also have alot of possibilities. Lol.
Ahahahahahahahahahahah.. I'm a retard.. I spent so much time trying to find it.. Walking in circles.. Getting squeezed.. Not going to the toilet.. Skip lunch and didn't hydrate myself..
Now..
I'm left with an answer.. No..
Ok.. I swear I won't do anything for anyone anymore.. It's a total waste of time. I could spend more time with family, play game or exercise etc........ U name it, it will be listed..
Ultimate pissed.. Hopefully no one will piss me off today..
YEAH!!! I finally completed my ord ffi!! I also was able to buy my Hebe's album!!!
AND
I actually went down to Suntec to look for brochures for my friend's speakers. Wow.. But I also went to look for my laptop's brochure. At least it will not be a wasted trip if she dont want to go and look for her speakers.
UNFORTUNATELY, I think i really wasted my time going down. Lol... I told her about the things that I have found at 1930. Its almost 2330. No answer yet. Omg. Lol!
If I didnt went down, I think i will be able to do more things...... Sigh...
Never mind. I guess this is the first and my last time doing such stupid thing again..
Although I dont have the chance to get an off day from it, I still think its an important day.
Imagine there isnt any teachers out there to teach you all the basic foundation. I have picked up alot of foundation when I was in my secondary school. That was the time when I started to understand everything.
I must really thank my maths teacher that have given me chance to go to secondary 4 when I did badly for my english in secondary 3. That time, he was my form teacher. I guess my results were good enough to allow him to cover one eye to let me pass to secondary 4.
Anyway, I think he is one of the best maths teacher ever. He gives us chance to ask questions, he gave us questions to try whenever the lesson began. He know how to explain things well. This is the kind of teacher that singapore needs. If there are more of this teacher, I believe every singaporean will be a scholar. HAHA!
I will use this post to thank him for all the lessons taught though I kind of disappoint him for my olevel results, getting B3 instead of usual A1 or A2.
